Towards the end of last year I was becoming very bleak, and with that bleakness came an underlying sense of anger. I saw not only injustice, but no platforming: the culture of complaint was stifling not merely public conversations but beginning to affect services and organizations that I had invested decades of my life in. To help preserve these, and under pressure, I shut down my previous blog, deleted the backup, and took a blogging break.
I was tired, bitter, cynical, burned out and bleak. But I could see that there was a time of crisis coming, and as the lectionary moved towards the end of the testaments the warnings appeared to affect this time more and more.
Consider this: that we are taught that we have a Lord and Master, who has descended into hell, freed the righteous who awaited for his death for their wrongdoing, and broke the bonds of Hades and drained the waters of the Lethe. He has already won. If you live as he teaches, you will do well, and you will not find yourself aligned with those whose only use is to be an example of what not to do or be.
The battle has already been one, and it is not our doing. The enemy knows that, and wants us to be deceived, and follow the spirit of this age, so we can again be united in evil, and equal in our damnation.
I was bleak. How then did I gain a sense of positivity? Well, I turned again to the word of God, and started reading the Psalms as in the Book of Common Prayer. This text is so old that is is barely modern English. It predates Shakespeare by a century. And it discusses the troubles of the righteous, and that the evil that they plan all too often is the trap that they fall into themselves.
I cut down my screen time. In particular, I stopped watching the news.
And I took a break, a holiday, after a year without a real break, and found myself sleeping ten hours most nights, instead of five.
This is a time of great trouble, and in these times those who have the joy which comes from the Lord, and live by his power in a sensible and sober manner, will bear witness to God, and give him the glory.
But it is also a time to be careful. For those who are miserable want to share that emotion, and will make complaints and try to invent new offenses to trap you.
To keep your innocency you must be craftier than a snake. To keep your integrity you must not align with those who lie.
And to keep your joy you must avoid the evil they call virtue. For the way of the world leads to despair. And we should not be like that, nor should we be like them.