22 November 19.

This evening Kea asked me why we can’t have a week without concern for our children. She’s not the only one worried: our kids are at that age where they have to leave, establish themselves, and develop independence. We know our weaknesses through the trial of experience, at times bitter. We love our kids. We would spare them some pain.

But in young adulthood wisdom is yet to be acquired: no book learning can replace that painful feedback about your weaknesses, errors and mistakes. Yes, the spirit can guide us.

But we need to be stretched, and this at times is very, very painful.

1 Peter 1:3-9

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His great mercy has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to obtain an inheritance which is imperishable and undefiled and will not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are protected by the power of God through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, 7 so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; 8 and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, 9 obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls.

So as I worry, this is on high rotation. Only in Christ can my heart and hands be accounted as pure. This is the foretaste of what we will see when he returns.