21 December 2021

I have omitted, for the sake of brevity, the old testament passage from the lectionary, which is how Rachel and Leah, the wives of Jacob, fourght and argued so they may have children. How they offered to Jacob their female servants as they aged, so that there would be more children. In particular, how desperate Leah was for the love of Jacob, and how much Rachel grieved that she did not have children. There are points there for men, about the experiences of our wives, that are woth thinking about. Suffice , for now, nto note that a woman without legitimate sons in Israel was marginalized. She had no human help, and had to rely on the LORD, as did the poor and powerless.

To this day, if you have sons you have power. Daugthers marry into families much more h=than sons do.

I have no doubt that both Rachel and Leah at times cried themselves to sleep. For Jacob was with one of the other women in his life, and the large household would have had arguments. It is a very good thing to marry once and cleave only to your spouse. Because it is righteous, and then you can have peace. I’m speculating, but I think the only peace Jacob had was in the fields, where he only had to do his job: he was managging the flocks of his father in law, Laban.

Psalm 113

113 Praise the Lord!
Praise, O servants of the Lord,
praise the name of the Lord!
2 Blessed be the name of the Lord
from this time forth and for evermore!
3 From the rising of the sun to its setting,
the name of the Lord is to be praised!
4 The Lord is high above all nations,
and his glory above the heavens!
5 Who is like the Lord our God,
who is seated on high,
6 who looks far down
on the heavens and the earth?
7 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap,
8 to make them sit with princes,
with the princes of his people.
9 He gives the barren woman a home,
making her the joyous mother of children.
Praise the Lord!

Romans 8:18-30

18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. 19 For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. 20 For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope 21 that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. 22 For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. 23 And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.

26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. 28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. 29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

It is Christmas, and last night we decided to watch one of the Christmas movies we used to love. I got halfway throguh and turned it off. I know the plot: I know where the heartbreak is, and though I know it is a comedy and all things work out, I could not watch becasue the pain of loss, as duty drove lovers apart and the lonely were deceived. I then shared how transitioning from my old job to the future is causing me to mourn a loss of status and security, how the movie reflected realities i had witnessed about caring for those who are chronically ill, and how the manipulations reflected on people I used to admire who were toxic, and how I had to turn away from them. It is when you are forced out of situations that you end up relying on God, and then you find that what you fought was safe was not safe. It was a box trap.

For this is a strange time. We have to go to the crunchy calvinits to find a church that will let us worship. I pray for my Catholic brothers, for their bishops demand a vaccine pass for mass. [1]

There is no question in my mind that the world wants to kill the Church as much as Herod wanted to kill Christ. We are going to need to have the OPSEC of snakes to survive in the next year or so. There are not many social Christians in New Zealand. The approved religion is paganism. We need discernment.

If a judgment doesn’t have an end goal of serving God, protecting your family, increasing your faith, or helping others with the faith, it is likely done out of pride to make yourself feel superior to others. You are the Pharisee looking at the publican exclaiming, “Thank God I’m not like that person!” If I’m feeling prideful or content with myself from the use of judgment, I know I’ve gone too far. On the other hand, if I’m using judgment to further my faith or the faith of others, chances are my judgment is not sinful, though I continually check my decisions with church elders. Unfortunately there are many cases in the middle, and you will inevitably slip and judge out of pride, but that’s why we have the sacrament of confession, which wipes your sin clean. When in doubt, I confess it.

One step at a time. Right now, we in Casa Kea can see where we think we are going, but that may not be where we will end up. One step. Do what whe have to do today.

DOn;t be too judgemental. There are many who have fallen for the lies of this world. At times we fall for the lies of this world. Roosh got the questions right. Does this help my witness anddraw me closer to God? Does this protect my family? On most ofther things, be gentle.

There is not evil in the world we need to repent of before we make up new sins, and make evil baked into our new traditions.

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1. This will grow the Sedevacantists and SSPX, for they don’t care. Death is not the end.

If a judgment doesn’t have an end goal of serving God, protecting your family, increasing your faith, or helping others with the faith, it is likely done out of pride to make yourself feel superior to others. You are the Pharisee looking at the publican exclaiming, “Thank God I’m not like that person!” If I’m feeling prideful or content with myself from the use of judgment, I know I’ve gone too far. On the other hand, if I’m using judgment to further my faith or the faith of others, chances are my judgment is not sinful, though I continually check my decisions with church elders. Unfortunately there are many cases in the middle, and you will inevitably slip and judge out of pride, but that’s why we have the sacrament of confession, which wipes your sin clean. When in doubt, I confess it.